The Holes in self....

I have been reading a lot recently about spirituality and after understanding a lot I still feel dwarfed by the enormity of the knowledge that I need to grasp. After whatever little I have understood and felt and experienced, I realise that your life and your existence are like an inflated balloon filled with your inner energy, you can call it by any name karma, atma, spirit, your existence, etc but it all means the same. The more people you interact with and allow to get close the more the chances that they leave holes in your balloon. These holes let go of your inner energy slowly and gradually. They eventually drain you of life without you realising it. These holes in self are created by anything that you percieve has hurt you and with time just get bigger. Remember the Hans of Holland story where he couldn't stop the water gushing out of that hole with one finger so he had to put two.. something very similar. They are like loose ends that need to be tied up so that your "SELF" is not lost. A lost love, a sour friendship, a broken relationship, a foul business partnership, sometimes even a bad waiter can all be cause of the holes in your self. We keep on giving out energy to that person by our thoughts, our energy. The energy that helps you achieve all in life is distributed in such worthless beings that you cringe when you realise it. There is an old saying.."leave no loose ends". The  old were smart, maybe this one has more than one dimensional meaning. There are several ways of mending yourself. My personal favourite is to detach yourself from everything that is happening. It helps in sealing the holes and prevents from creating new ones. More on detachment sometime later... Till then tie the loose ends and don't let some unworthy prick sap you of your energies.