The Holes in self....

I have been reading a lot recently about spirituality and after understanding a lot I still feel dwarfed by the enormity of the knowledge that I need to grasp. After whatever little I have understood and felt and experienced, I realise that your life and your existence are like an inflated balloon filled with your inner energy, you can call it by any name karma, atma, spirit, your existence, etc but it all means the same. The more people you interact with and allow to get close the more the chances that they leave holes in your balloon. These holes let go of your inner energy slowly and gradually. They eventually drain you of life without you realising it. These holes in self are created by anything that you percieve has hurt you and with time just get bigger. Remember the Hans of Holland story where he couldn't stop the water gushing out of that hole with one finger so he had to put two.. something very similar. They are like loose ends that need to be tied up so that your "SELF" is not lost. A lost love, a sour friendship, a broken relationship, a foul business partnership, sometimes even a bad waiter can all be cause of the holes in your self. We keep on giving out energy to that person by our thoughts, our energy. The energy that helps you achieve all in life is distributed in such worthless beings that you cringe when you realise it. There is an old saying.."leave no loose ends". The  old were smart, maybe this one has more than one dimensional meaning. There are several ways of mending yourself. My personal favourite is to detach yourself from everything that is happening. It helps in sealing the holes and prevents from creating new ones. More on detachment sometime later... Till then tie the loose ends and don't let some unworthy prick sap you of your energies.

Thank GOD for the middle class

Today morning was having a discussion with my mom regarding the Gandhi family. Recently a lot has been talked about with regards to it in the office. In teh discussion mom said that the lower class wouldn't have anything to do with morals and ethics. Their females would do anything from teh now acceptable , smoking, to the red light area activities, so would their men in fact. The super rick or the powerful too have no one to answer. They are accountable only to themselves (?) What remains is the middle class. The class that suffers no matter what. The class that travels in the trains crushed by hundreds of other similar travellers who have no option left for travelling inspite of paying all the taxes. The middle class man who after being frustrted by driving on the potholes can only manage making a  fight with the auto rickshaw guy or his wife, but nothing beyond that reaches the men actually responsible for his apathy. A lot has been written about the awakening of the middle class man and the changes he can bring about. I like the rest of them are apparently waiting for someone to begin. Coming back to the discussion, I was wondering if the society should be thankful to us for the principles that we bring in. Should we be thankful to the dad who is strict enough to ask his daughter to be home by 11p.m. at least and give a call at 10:30 p.m. to let him know where she is and how is she planning to travel (these time deadlines have been extended by an hour since the time I was a teenager!! ) Should we be thankful to him because he slaps his son in time to restrict him from venturing off-course at an early stage. I shudder at the imagination if these dads' didnt exist. Would things have collapsed into their own negative spiral or would the soceity have learnt to accept the fact that girls do get raped and men turn into goondas only like we have accepted corruption .... I am glad I don't have to see it for real as to what actually happens. But I am not sure if I can stay this happy for very long. I wish I can.... We all do!!